"Hurt not the earth, neither the sea, nor the trees..."
Revelation 7:3
I am grateful for this gift we've been given. Mother Earth.
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Monday, April 15, 2013
Risk
Not just people but loving anything and putting your whole heart into something can be terrifying. At least it is for me. I don't like to get hurt so I live very cautiously and sometimes too cautiously. Something I have been thinking about lot lately is this:
What would you do if you knew you could not fail?
I had a conversation with a friend the other day where we were discussing how it would be nice if we didn't have to sleep. We would have more time to spend with the people we loved and more time doing the things we loved. I told him that I would be scared to see what I would do with all that extra time because I feel like I already fill up my time with just things. I realized that if I didn't make time for the people I loved and to do the things I loved already I probably wouldn't make time either with 8 extra hours in the day. Sometimes it's hard to say no and to realize you can't make everyone happy all the time. At least for me. But I've realized that I need to take those risks of completely loving and being vulnerable, and making sacrifices for better things. I need to take the risk of putting my whole heart into something I love and into people I love and not be afraid of disappointment or let down because if I knew I could not fail that's exactly what I would do. I would be a kind, a committed, an honest, an adventurous, and feeling person who knew how to love deeply. I'd be me and nothing or no one else. If I couldn't fail I'd take the risk to do what my heart told me to do. With that attitude I still might fail but by getting up and believing I could not fail again I would accomplish much more and grow much more.
It is a risk to love. It is a risk to live but, if we don't take the risk....what will we accomplish?
Monday, April 8, 2013
WORDS
Well I was going through this drawer of letters and cards that I had. It made me think about 500 Days of Summer again and reminded me of the scene where Tom freaked out about greeting cards and then quit his job.
What are words? And why don't we speak the ones that mean the most more often? And why do we turn to words already made by someone else? Why do we have to hide behind another's words? We need to learn to be brave enough to say our own words.
I love that I have all these meaningful words written down on paper that I have to keep but, as I was reading I also realized that a select few of these letters were the last attempt to save something that was failing. Those words are things I am grateful I have on paper to be reminded of but, during that time the last thing I needed was words on paper. I needed to hear those words come from that person's mouth. And often. And I needed them long before they came.
Words are only representations of things. We need not only say or write these things that we truly mean but, show them by our actions as well.
I love books, I write often in my journal. I can not accurately portray images in my head by sketching so I first write out my ideas and what I see and feel before starting a painting. I am so grateful for these letters I have. I am grateful for words that are sung. I am grateful for pen and paper that aids expression of feeling and emotion and learning. I am grateful for language that allows feelings to be expressed through words but, I so wish that we expressed those meaningful things more often.
Words are beautiful on paper or spoken but they need to be used more. And not just used to only use but to use with purpose. They should be used to make ourselves and others better people because they were spoken or written or sung.
Saturday, April 6, 2013
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Not Lost.
Going off my last post...
Sometimes I go along with something for so long and I get somewhere but, not where I want to. I'm like a river at times. I follow the path of least resistance. Rivers are beautiful I think, and they get you to the ocean eventually, they take you through forests and down hills, they form waterfalls, they hold fish and give life. But I don't want to be a river. I want to be like a mountain. Mountains take you to lakes and rivers. They hold up forests and provide homes for all wildlife. They create valleys and waterfalls, they give you views of the ocean and bring you close to the sky. You see and experience more, including the river at the bottom of the valley or canyon's experience but, you see the bigger picture and it makes more sense why things are the way they are. It may be harder to be like a mountain but, in the long run I think it's more worth it. It may take more time to create or even break down but, I'm also learning a lot about patience recently.
Truth is. I live in a beautiful place. Thanks to a friend who reminded me to wake up I was able to watch the sunrise this morning on the side of a mountain. The patchwork in the valley was beautiful with the light reflecting off every little small or semi large body of water. Looking at all the roads connecting, seeing the light stream through the side canyons and slowly bring the side of the mountain to life. I loved it. So peaceful. It's times like that in my life that I know God truly exists. Something that beautiful and perfect had to have a hand in it from a Higher Power. I truly am blessed but, just like the Big Fish quote, I'm not really ready to stay here even though a large part of me wants to. I want to keep moving around still and learning about myself, my purpose, and about people. I realized though I need to continually be happy with where I am now and not where I'm going. because if I'm not I'll always be trying to go somewhere to find something I'm not 100% sure I'm looking for. It comes from inside of me first. Then I am allowed to learn more along the way of where I'm going.
Sometimes I go along with something for so long and I get somewhere but, not where I want to. I'm like a river at times. I follow the path of least resistance. Rivers are beautiful I think, and they get you to the ocean eventually, they take you through forests and down hills, they form waterfalls, they hold fish and give life. But I don't want to be a river. I want to be like a mountain. Mountains take you to lakes and rivers. They hold up forests and provide homes for all wildlife. They create valleys and waterfalls, they give you views of the ocean and bring you close to the sky. You see and experience more, including the river at the bottom of the valley or canyon's experience but, you see the bigger picture and it makes more sense why things are the way they are. It may be harder to be like a mountain but, in the long run I think it's more worth it. It may take more time to create or even break down but, I'm also learning a lot about patience recently.
This town is more than any man could ask for. And if I were to end up here, I'd consider myself lucky. But the truth is, I'm not ready to end up anywhere.-Big Fish
Truth is. I live in a beautiful place. Thanks to a friend who reminded me to wake up I was able to watch the sunrise this morning on the side of a mountain. The patchwork in the valley was beautiful with the light reflecting off every little small or semi large body of water. Looking at all the roads connecting, seeing the light stream through the side canyons and slowly bring the side of the mountain to life. I loved it. So peaceful. It's times like that in my life that I know God truly exists. Something that beautiful and perfect had to have a hand in it from a Higher Power. I truly am blessed but, just like the Big Fish quote, I'm not really ready to stay here even though a large part of me wants to. I want to keep moving around still and learning about myself, my purpose, and about people. I realized though I need to continually be happy with where I am now and not where I'm going. because if I'm not I'll always be trying to go somewhere to find something I'm not 100% sure I'm looking for. It comes from inside of me first. Then I am allowed to learn more along the way of where I'm going.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Things I Realized
So really to be perfectly honest I feel I have nothing to write anymore. I feel I did at first but, now I don't. I seriously have felt like I haven't learned anything lately because I haven't had time to stop and take it all in. Then I realized that was false. I have learned a lot. I learned....or remembered at least...that people are sacred. Especially when they let you in, I remembered to tread lightly.
I watched 500 Days of Summer the other day and the whole time I was trying to figure out if I was Tom or Summer. I think sometimes I'm a lot like Summer, I just do what I want because I don't really know what I want. And that's not fair. People are so sacred and fragile. Their thoughts and feelings are not to be taken and thrown aside. They have meaning. There is a need for more kindness in this world.
I also realized that I say Yes...pretty much all the time. If something sounds fun I want in and I also realized that being passive and saying Yes to everything doesn't necessarily get me anywhere. It gets me somewhere but, not where I want to go. And then that's when I wake up one morning and say, "No, this is not where I want to be. How did I get here?"
So the biggest lesson I have learned is that I can choose to do things of my own free will and choice. I can and do choose where my life will go but, I can also be kind while doing it.
I realized that I don't have life figured out like I thought and it's going to take me a very long time to figure it out but, that's ok too!
I realized I can't expect to go to the ocean and leave my troubles there. The waves always roll back in. The Tide always comes back up. I can't let them go in the balloon because the balloon will always come back down. Maybe I won't be around when it comes back around but, I don't want my troubles to be let out on someone else. I realized the best way to get rid of troubles is to face them and deal with them. And that is very hard.
I realized silence is a blessing. Turning off the radio, taking my ipod out...or in this case forgetting it at home on accident...it's a blessing and a nice break for the brain and even the spirit.
I live in a beautiful place. As much as I didn't want to leave my warm bed this morning, getting up and running on a muddy trail was very liberating and brought a lot of joy and peace throughout the rest of my day. Thank you to my friend who showed me that amazing trail!
I also realized that when I can't reciprocate another person's feelings how I know they'd like me to, it really stresses me out! Because I like to make people happy. But there is a need for me to be happy as well. And it's almost not fair if something is holding you back to not let another person know.
And it's impossible to make everyone happy.
Sadly, it can't be done.
Happiness is an individual mindset it doesn't come from others...it can be enhanced by others but, it comes first from yourself.
Once again, kindness and being open goes a long way.
I am constantly amazed at how much people care. There is hope for the human race my friends because I know of so many people in my own life who care so much! And they care about me. And to be quite frank. I don't understand why they do! But they do. And I appreciate it.
I was sick recently and a good friend brought me this package. Best thing ever! It helped so much. If you have that gross flu bug that's going around. USE THIS!
6-7 lemon ginger tea bags
2 cups epsom salt
1/4 baking soda
5-6 drops peppermint oil
Pour...do you pour a bath? or do you make it? Well put water in the bath from the faucet at a temp a little warmer than normal. As it's filling up add the salt and soda. According to my friend it'll pull the "sickies" outta ya. Which it most definitely does. Peppermint helps with the nausea and the ginger from the tea helps to keep you warm. When you're done don't overdress because the ginger keeps you warm like I said before and put one drop of peppermint on a cold compress to keep your body temp level.
You can find the peppermint oil for a pretty good price at places like Good Earth. Also pick up a bag of Gin-Gins while there. That was the only thing that calmed my stomach.
Warning: If you get peppermint in your eye. It is THE worst. So don't do it!
What else have I learned...oh! Lucky Slice Pizza. Coolest place ever. Their single slices are huge and super thin but, there whole pies are way good and not as thin...Sunrise Sushi rolls at Tona's are delish....and the Bike Collective has got to be one of the coolest things I've stepped foot in.
I am blessed but I need to calm down and realize that I am.
I watched 500 Days of Summer the other day and the whole time I was trying to figure out if I was Tom or Summer. I think sometimes I'm a lot like Summer, I just do what I want because I don't really know what I want. And that's not fair. People are so sacred and fragile. Their thoughts and feelings are not to be taken and thrown aside. They have meaning. There is a need for more kindness in this world.
I also realized that I say Yes...pretty much all the time. If something sounds fun I want in and I also realized that being passive and saying Yes to everything doesn't necessarily get me anywhere. It gets me somewhere but, not where I want to go. And then that's when I wake up one morning and say, "No, this is not where I want to be. How did I get here?"
So the biggest lesson I have learned is that I can choose to do things of my own free will and choice. I can and do choose where my life will go but, I can also be kind while doing it.
I realized that I don't have life figured out like I thought and it's going to take me a very long time to figure it out but, that's ok too!
I realized I can't expect to go to the ocean and leave my troubles there. The waves always roll back in. The Tide always comes back up. I can't let them go in the balloon because the balloon will always come back down. Maybe I won't be around when it comes back around but, I don't want my troubles to be let out on someone else. I realized the best way to get rid of troubles is to face them and deal with them. And that is very hard.
I realized silence is a blessing. Turning off the radio, taking my ipod out...or in this case forgetting it at home on accident...it's a blessing and a nice break for the brain and even the spirit.
I live in a beautiful place. As much as I didn't want to leave my warm bed this morning, getting up and running on a muddy trail was very liberating and brought a lot of joy and peace throughout the rest of my day. Thank you to my friend who showed me that amazing trail!
I also realized that when I can't reciprocate another person's feelings how I know they'd like me to, it really stresses me out! Because I like to make people happy. But there is a need for me to be happy as well. And it's almost not fair if something is holding you back to not let another person know.
And it's impossible to make everyone happy.
Sadly, it can't be done.
Happiness is an individual mindset it doesn't come from others...it can be enhanced by others but, it comes first from yourself.
Once again, kindness and being open goes a long way.
I am constantly amazed at how much people care. There is hope for the human race my friends because I know of so many people in my own life who care so much! And they care about me. And to be quite frank. I don't understand why they do! But they do. And I appreciate it.
I was sick recently and a good friend brought me this package. Best thing ever! It helped so much. If you have that gross flu bug that's going around. USE THIS!
6-7 lemon ginger tea bags
2 cups epsom salt
1/4 baking soda
5-6 drops peppermint oil
Pour...do you pour a bath? or do you make it? Well put water in the bath from the faucet at a temp a little warmer than normal. As it's filling up add the salt and soda. According to my friend it'll pull the "sickies" outta ya. Which it most definitely does. Peppermint helps with the nausea and the ginger from the tea helps to keep you warm. When you're done don't overdress because the ginger keeps you warm like I said before and put one drop of peppermint on a cold compress to keep your body temp level.
You can find the peppermint oil for a pretty good price at places like Good Earth. Also pick up a bag of Gin-Gins while there. That was the only thing that calmed my stomach.
Warning: If you get peppermint in your eye. It is THE worst. So don't do it!
What else have I learned...oh! Lucky Slice Pizza. Coolest place ever. Their single slices are huge and super thin but, there whole pies are way good and not as thin...Sunrise Sushi rolls at Tona's are delish....and the Bike Collective has got to be one of the coolest things I've stepped foot in.
I am blessed but I need to calm down and realize that I am.
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