So really to be perfectly honest I feel I have nothing to write anymore. I feel I did at first but, now I don't. I seriously have felt like I haven't learned anything lately because I haven't had time to stop and take it all in. Then I realized that was false. I have learned a lot. I learned....or remembered at least...that people are sacred. Especially when they let you in, I remembered to tread lightly.
I watched 500 Days of Summer the other day and the whole time I was trying to figure out if I was Tom or Summer. I think sometimes I'm a lot like Summer, I just do what I want because I don't really know what I want. And that's not fair. People are so sacred and fragile. Their thoughts and feelings are not to be taken and thrown aside. They have meaning. There is a need for more kindness in this world.
I also realized that I say Yes...pretty much all the time. If something sounds fun I want in and I also realized that being passive and saying Yes to everything doesn't necessarily get me anywhere. It gets me somewhere but, not where I want to go. And then that's when I wake up one morning and say, "No, this is not where I want to be. How did I get here?"
So the biggest lesson I have learned is that I can choose to do things of my own free will and choice. I can and do choose where my life will go but, I can also be kind while doing it.
I realized that I don't have life figured out like I thought and it's going to take me a very long time to figure it out but, that's ok too!
I realized I can't expect to go to the ocean and leave my troubles there. The waves always roll back in. The Tide always comes back up. I can't let them go in the balloon because the balloon will always come back down. Maybe I won't be around when it comes back around but, I don't want my troubles to be let out on someone else. I realized the best way to get rid of troubles is to face them and deal with them. And that is very hard.
I realized silence is a blessing. Turning off the radio, taking my ipod out...or in this case forgetting it at home on accident...it's a blessing and a nice break for the brain and even the spirit.
I live in a beautiful place. As much as I didn't want to leave my warm bed this morning, getting up and running on a muddy trail was very liberating and brought a lot of joy and peace throughout the rest of my day. Thank you to my friend who showed me that amazing trail!
I also realized that when I can't reciprocate another person's feelings how I know they'd like me to, it really stresses me out! Because I like to make people happy. But there is a need for me to be happy as well. And it's almost not fair if something is holding you back to not let another person know.
And it's impossible to make everyone happy.
Sadly, it can't be done.
Happiness is an individual mindset it doesn't come from others...it can be enhanced by others but, it comes first from yourself.
Once again, kindness and being open goes a long way.
I am constantly amazed at how much people care. There is hope for the human race my friends because I know of so many people in my own life who care so much! And they care about me. And to be quite frank. I don't understand why they do! But they do. And I appreciate it.
I was sick recently and a good friend brought me this package. Best thing ever! It helped so much. If you have that gross flu bug that's going around. USE THIS!
6-7 lemon ginger tea bags
2 cups epsom salt
1/4 baking soda
5-6 drops peppermint oil
Pour...do you pour a bath? or do you make it? Well put water in the bath from the faucet at a temp a little warmer than normal. As it's filling up add the salt and soda. According to my friend it'll pull the "sickies" outta ya. Which it most definitely does. Peppermint helps with the nausea and the ginger from the tea helps to keep you warm. When you're done don't overdress because the ginger keeps you warm like I said before and put one drop of peppermint on a cold compress to keep your body temp level.
You can find the peppermint oil for a pretty good price at places like Good Earth. Also pick up a bag of Gin-Gins while there. That was the only thing that calmed my stomach.
Warning: If you get peppermint in your eye. It is THE worst. So don't do it!
What else have I learned...oh! Lucky Slice Pizza. Coolest place ever. Their single slices are huge and super thin but, there whole pies are way good and not as thin...Sunrise Sushi rolls at Tona's are delish....and the Bike Collective has got to be one of the coolest things I've stepped foot in.
I am blessed but I need to calm down and realize that I am.
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